"You're helping already, Nat, better than anyone else could."
With her face pressed so closely against his skin, his breath warming where the shivers had started again, Clint had another thing to focus on, leave that dark place his thoughts had once more settled in.
She was there, still, maybe he should just stop trying to be afraid that she wouldn't. She hadn't ever been scared off by this whole mess, why should she now?
"You haven't run from me like everyone else close to me did, though maybe you would have been right to. I mean, I do mess up a lot of things. I've never tried to pretend, all the shit that ever happened to me was not at least partially my fault. And P.E.G.A.S.U.S. was just one of them. I should have... don't know. 've been faster. I wasn't in the greatest of shapes."
He shrugged tiredly, just rubbing his eyes shortly to tear his mind away from these useless self-reproaches before he started stroking Natasha's back again, turned his head to press his too cool lips against her temple. That wasn't the point now.
"But you've always been there, in spite of everything I fucked up. It's part of the reason I love you so much, you know. I just need to find a way to forget these visions, the bastard planted into me."
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With her face pressed so closely against his skin, his breath warming where the shivers had started again, Clint had another thing to focus on, leave that dark place his thoughts had once more settled in.
She was there, still, maybe he should just stop trying to be afraid that she wouldn't. She hadn't ever been scared off by this whole mess, why should she now?
"You haven't run from me like everyone else close to me did, though maybe you would have been right to. I mean, I do mess up a lot of things. I've never tried to pretend, all the shit that ever happened to me was not at least partially my fault. And P.E.G.A.S.U.S. was just one of them. I should have... don't know. 've been faster. I wasn't in the greatest of shapes."
He shrugged tiredly, just rubbing his eyes shortly to tear his mind away from these useless self-reproaches before he started stroking Natasha's back again, turned his head to press his too cool lips against her temple. That wasn't the point now.
"But you've always been there, in spite of everything I fucked up. It's part of the reason I love you so much, you know. I just need to find a way to forget these visions, the bastard planted into me."