He could have told her that he had just forgotten to warm up properly - not at all was more like it - and that he wasn't that young anymore, but why lie to her? She'd know, anyway. She already had her way of telling him what she thought about his stupidity. A way that had him groan between his teeth from time to time or bite down on that pillow. It would just bring back this unbearable tension between them to make up excuses.
"Adrenaline helps, you know. Mostly I just got wasted in the past when I wanted to forget, but sometimes... Can't really remember how often I woke up in some dirty side valley because I ran too long and too far in the middle of the night. Especially after all this crap with... after New York. Probably lucky they didn't just shoot or stab me somewhere by accident."
His hand on her thigh caressed her softly, just a little to not distract her from her task, and his eyes rested on her face unflinchingly. Only these little pained sounds were on his lips from time to time, but they already came less frequent. Natasha knew what she was doing, always had. He definitely didn't plan on making this a habit anyway. Or at least not in a way that she had to watch.
"Sometimes I need that. Sometimes it needs to hurt outside instead of inside."
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Date: 2014-06-22 03:58 pm (UTC)From:"Adrenaline helps, you know. Mostly I just got wasted in the past when I wanted to forget, but sometimes... Can't really remember how often I woke up in some dirty side valley because I ran too long and too far in the middle of the night. Especially after all this crap with... after New York. Probably lucky they didn't just shoot or stab me somewhere by accident."
His hand on her thigh caressed her softly, just a little to not distract her from her task, and his eyes rested on her face unflinchingly. Only these little pained sounds were on his lips from time to time, but they already came less frequent. Natasha knew what she was doing, always had. He definitely didn't plan on making this a habit anyway. Or at least not in a way that she had to watch.
"Sometimes I need that. Sometimes it needs to hurt outside instead of inside."