She knew... Of course she knew. There was probably no one who knew better but her.
Which was exactly why he had hesitated bringing this up in detail so far. He had not wanted to be a burden for her, adding his own memories to her horrors. The dream had left him with a moment of weakness and couldn't help but be relieved when she didn't run from him after all these confessions. Her kisses started crawling it where the coldness set, and he leaned his head forward again, pressing his lips tightly against her hands and resting his cheek against them.
"I'm just afraid, Nat. There's not exactly a science about all this. They keep on telling me, all looks fine but they won't let me out of evaluation. I just can't stand the thought..."
The next shivers went from the base of his neck all the way down and he was just sure, she actually had to see it. After quickly wiping his face in the pillows, he turned around to her, because he needed her in his arms, right now, needed to know, this all was just coming from his own paranoia. That she wasn't going anywhere.
"What if I just wake up one day and everything's back that he left there? You have to promise me, Tash', please..." Looking at her just made it worse, he had to bury his face into her shoulder, his unsteady hands slightly tightening around her neck, her back. "You... just be careful, okay?"
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Date: 2013-11-18 01:20 am (UTC)From:Which was exactly why he had hesitated bringing this up in detail so far. He had not wanted to be a burden for her, adding his own memories to her horrors. The dream had left him with a moment of weakness and couldn't help but be relieved when she didn't run from him after all these confessions. Her kisses started crawling it where the coldness set, and he leaned his head forward again, pressing his lips tightly against her hands and resting his cheek against them.
"I'm just afraid, Nat. There's not exactly a science about all this. They keep on telling me, all looks fine but they won't let me out of evaluation. I just can't stand the thought..."
The next shivers went from the base of his neck all the way down and he was just sure, she actually had to see it. After quickly wiping his face in the pillows, he turned around to her, because he needed her in his arms, right now, needed to know, this all was just coming from his own paranoia. That she wasn't going anywhere.
"What if I just wake up one day and everything's back that he left there? You have to promise me, Tash', please..."
Looking at her just made it worse, he had to bury his face into her shoulder, his unsteady hands slightly tightening around her neck, her back.
"You... just be careful, okay?"