Dancing in the Dark (for farmboyhawk)

[study_in_scarlet]

They didn’t get a lot of time off together, at least not enough to make a trip away worthwhile, so for this one weekend they decided to stay in the city and play tourist for the day.

They had started with a walk through Central Park before grabbing an early lunch at one of the city’s many street vendors and then wandering through the American Museum of Natural history. Natasha found the Hall of Minerals fascinating while Clint had gotten a kick out of all the dinosaur bones. They both enjoyed laying under the big blue whale with all the normal people.

Afterwards they went to a nice restaurant for supper, blending into the crowd of normal couples as best they could and Natasha actually forgot if she was playing a role or being herself as they finished their wine and shared their desserts.

“Thank you,” she said sincerely as they left the restaurant, stepping back into the cool night air. Nearby a busker played guitar and sang with surprising melody and soul, barely seeming to notice as people threw change into his open case, so caught up was he in his music.


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[study_in_scarlet]

When they arrived at their destination Natasha left her shoes near the bike, not really caring if someone decided to steal them or not; she just didn’t want to carry them along as they explored the beach.

The air was so fresh here, so clean compared to the stale, smoggy air of New York, and she took a moment to just breathe it in. She could smell the sea, the beach, and life itself, she was certain of it.

The pebbles beneath her bare feet were warm from the sun and she wiggled her toes before falling into step beside Clint. He seemed to have a destination in mind, and this trip she was content to follow his lead anywhere.

“If you think you will have an advantage because of how I’m dressed, think again,” she said. She was hardly dressed to scale rocks, especially with a purse to worry about, but Natasha was nothing if not resourceful, and she put little stock in appearances. She could be just as effective in a dress as in her familiar catsuit.

Easily scaling the rock to stand beside Clint, she raised her eyebrow at him challengingly before quickly jumping into action.

[farmboyhawk]

Natasha fell into the game exactly as he had hoped and he could have kissed her if she hadn't already started.

Soon he wished, he'd have gotten out of his shoes too, as some of the rocks were slippery with seaweed. But well, they hadn't trained him in artistry for nothing. He avoided falling easily, jumping even over big lengths which indeed gave him advantage over Natasha's run one or two times, but in the end she just had speed and a certain agility over him.

He didn't mind. Losing against her wasn't exactly a shameful defeat.

At least he was hardly out of breath when he joined her on the mentioned furthest rows of rocks, where the waves hit high enough to touch the surface and you could spot fish in the water easily. He finally kicked his shoes off to let his feet dangle into the lukewarm water and sat back far enough for Natasha to sit in front of him if she wanted to.

"So... Since you've won, you can make a wish, you know."

He raised an eyebrow at her with a definitely dirty grin, leaving no doubt about where he preferred to fulfill such wishes.

[study_in_scarlet]

The race was exhilarating, and while the rocks were slippery beneath her feet Natasha moved swiftly and easily over them, her years of training making it a piece of cake. Clint passed her a few times, but she always managed to retake the lead and when all was said and done she ended up at the edge of the rocks, grinning at him when he approached.

Watching him take a seat and get comfortable, she grinned silently at him for a moment before taking a seat beside him and dipping her feet in the water as well. It was nearing the hottest part of the day, and the game left her with a thin sheen of sweat on her brow which she didn’t wipe away, not wanting to also remove her sunscreen.

“A wish?” she said, giving him her most innocent look to deliberately contrast the filthy grin he was giving her. “There are so many things I could wish for. However will I choose?”

[farmboyhawk]

"Well, I could suggest a few things, but that would kinda contradict the purpose."

Clint laid back against the warmed surface of the rock, still smiling, with his arms crossed under his head and stared up into the blinding blue sky. They wouldn't be able to stay here forever, not under such a bright sun, but for a few minutes, this was just perfect.

Only salt and warmth on his skin, a few seagulls close by probably debating who got the biggest chunk of their lunch, a boat honking in the distance. It was quiet enough to hear even the children laughing and playing on the beach behind them. They were playing anime stuff and wizards or vampires on their card games nowadays, instead of superheroes or the good old UNO that Barney and him had preferred, but other than that... This was probably the closest to normal he'd ever get.

And it was enough. More than. Because he wasn't alone anymore, seeing others happy and feeling out of place, pondering about his miserable life choices. There were a few things he had done right and the woman by his side had been the best.

He turned his head lazily when the sun stung too much in his eyes and blinked at her, sighing. God, he loved her hair color in the sunshine.

[study_in_scarlet]

“Oh, I’m sure I can handle the task of coming up with something on my own,” Natasha replied.

Lying down beside Clint, she folded her hands on her stomach and closed her eyes beneath her sunglasses, just relishing in the heat of the sun, the smell in the air, and the joyful sounds around them. She had no idea what the children were playing, not that she would have even if they had been playing the games of Clint’s youth, but their laughter made everything feel so surreal. When she was in the field all she heard were the sounds of screaming and crying, so the laughter seemed to be that final sign that all was well and that they were safe here.

Rolling her head to the side, she opened her eyes to find Clint’s blue eyes staring back at her. “Hi,” she said quietly, just holding his gaze.

[farmboyhawk]

There were moments like this when he fell newly in love with just the sound of her voice, with just one little syllable. That low, husky drawl never failed to creep inside of him, stimulating his senses like an intimate touch, even without any real nuance. Beautiful in her rough, intense, special kind of way, just like her face, her body, and God, he needed to stop staring at her.

With a small, helpless laugh, he closed his eyes and tried to get his fluttering heart under control. For heaven's sake, he wasn't a lovesick teenager... He was her partner, her best friend, her lover, everything she needed him to be and she gladly took it. There was no reason to flush like a teenager at the first date.

But that still was how she made him feel, after all these years. Maybe it was just the sun playing in her hair so fascinatingly in this very moment, or their feet accidentally brushing underwater, soft tenderness laced in warm salt. Or the simple fact that they were lying here side by side in a place he sometimes called home and had nowhere to be, nothing to do. Just relax and enjoy.

Whatever it was, he suddenly felt like he would die if he wouldn't roll over to her and kiss her, so he did just that.

[study_in_scarlet]

When Clint laughed and closed his eyes, Natasha merely smiled and turned her head back toward the sky again. Lying here with him, here, like this... she couldn’t remember a time she had ever felt more at peace. There was always something going n in the back of her mind, some mission to look toward, some past transgression haunting her, but right now she felt none of this. Right now she felt only calm, only loved, only peaceful.

His leg brushed hers underwater, barely a touch but it made her smile, made her stretch out her fingers to his in a touch just as light. Out of the corner of her eye she saw him moving beside her but was unprepared for the sudden kiss, though it didn’t take her long to recover and reciprocate, her hand moving up to cup the back of his head.

She kissed him softly, lazily, just enjoying the moment. His lips, his hair - everywhere she touched him was warm from the sun, and she wanted to wrap herself in that warmth and lose herself in it.

[farmboyhawk]

Very careful to not press her into the hard underground, Clint rested on his side, on his arm while his other slipped softly around her waist. Her body was warm, so much softer under his touch than when they were training or doing some fake touching on a mission. His fingertips played over her shoulder until he reached her neck, played a little with her adorably ruffled hair or just softly held her cheek while their lips once more melted into a tight embrace. She tasted a little like wine and and Southern spices, which had him smile against her mouth.

Long minutes passed of just enjoying each other, his body protecting hers from too bright sunshine, until it finally became too uncomfortable on the stones and he carefully pulled her up with him. Thanks to the uneven levels of their little platform he could look straight in their eyes when they were on their feet and made use of that, for several long moments, with his fingertips gently holding her face.

"That's exactly how I always saw you when I sat here alone", he finally said quietly, a last hint of disbelief still shining through his voice. "These are the things I'm taking with me for the next time I get my ass in some torture shit or spend a month sitting on a rooftop."

[study_in_scarlet]

It felt good to just kiss him with no regard for their surroundings nor time nor anything else that might warn them to stop. HIs fingertips were light on her skin, his kiss gentle, far from their heated liplocks earlier in the tub. It was just touch and taste and pure and utter enjoyment until the hard surface beneath them became a little too uncomfortable.

She let Clint help her to her feet, glad for his arms around her as she was hit with a sudden wave of dizziness. Thankfully it passed quickly and he didn’t seem to notice, too caught up in just gazing into her eyes since they were unusually level with his own.

Resting her hands on his hips, she met his eyes unwaveringly and said nothing, giving him his moment and letting him be the one to break the silence. She didn’t want to think about the future, not right now, not when that future might lead to the things he mentioned.

“Well, for now you get to take me with you, so turn around.” It was a strange request but she knew he would do it, and when he did she climbed easily onto his back in for she believed was referred to as a ‘piggy back ride’.

Love was for children, and every once in a while even the Black Widow could act childish, not that anyone would ever believe it unless they saw it for themselves.

[farmboyhawk]

No matter how well Clint knew her, sometimes she still made it to confuse the hell out of him, and this was one of these moments... At least until he suddenly felt her body wrap around his. His instincts reacted before his brains could catch up, commanding his arms to wrap around her legs, hold her safe and tight against him. And just as easily she had him laughing again, shaking his hand and kissing her arm around his neck.

He was surprised, yes, but not as much as he would have been as maybe a few days ago. They had done one or the other childish thing on the weekend and on their way here. And he was one of the few people who had had the pleasure of seeing Natasha show her lighter, carefree side before. When it came up, he never really quite knew, what would be happening, but it always made him happy.

"That's a kind of workout I can live with", he grinned, giving her no time for an answer before he started their way back to the street.

And not exactly much slower than before. Which wasn't much of a challenge with a lightweight like Natasha on his back, but he did have to watch his step. He certainly planned to take her swimming a few times before the temperatures would make it unpleasant, but not fully clothed...

They arrived at the beach safely though, but he made no move to let her down, just continued his way along the beach back to their parking space.

"Still owe you ice cream for desert", he remarked, still grinning. "Is there room again in your stomach?"

[study_in_scarlet]

For a brief moment Natasha felt foolish, but Clint’s laugh made it worth it. It was not really like her to act like this, but to hear him laugh lately she would do just about anything.

“I’m just trying to help since you were so worried at the restaurant about eating too much,” she teased, unable to even try to hold back her smile. She still felt silly, childish, but if Clint didn’t care then why should she? He certainly seemed up for the challenge, and instead of taking his time getting back to the beach, he moved quickly along as if her extra weight wasn’t a burden at all.

Even when they were back on level ground he didn’t let her back on her feet, instead proceeding to carry her the whole way back to the road where their transport and, surprisingly, her shoes still waited.

“I don’t know...” she said, leaning back from him enough to rub a hand over her bloated belly. “If I eat any more you may have to carry me wherever we go for the rest of the day.”

[farmboyhawk]

"While I wouldn't mind that..."

Clint dropped her off gently when they had reached the scooter so she came to sit on it and could put her shoes back on.

"We'll have plenty of time to discover all kind of food in the next weeks."

It surprised him that she let him handle her like that, and not for the first time since yesterday he thought to see that exhausted look around her eyes. He hoped that she wasn't coming down with something, but as long as she didn't say anything, he didn't want to pry. But he decided, they had all time in the world for all kind of excursions too, he decided.

"You know, I think hanging around in a well air conditioned house for the rest of the day sounds really nice."

[study_in_scarlet]

As good as ice cream sounded, the thought of eating another bite right then made Natasha’s stomach turn a little, so she was glad that Clint didn’t seem to have his heart completely set on the idea, at least not for today.

“Very true,” she said, strapping one shoe around her ankle. “And tomorrow we can always have dessert first so we don’t miss out.”

Once she had both shoes back in place she smiled up at him and patted the seat in front of her for him to take so they could be on their way again. She thought she was playing everything off really well, but when Clint suggested they spend the rest of the day at his house she knew she wasn’t fooling him as well as she had thought. She didn’t want to ruin any plans he had, but if she protested and won, he would only coddle her for the rest of the day, either openly or just watching her whenever he thought she wasn’t looking. She wasn’t sure which would be worse. Either way, if he was willing to let her keep up her charade then she should be relieved and accept the reprieve he was giving her. Tomorrow was another day, and they still had plenty of time to explore.

“It does,” she agreed. “And tomorrow, after the market, we can go to the beach prepared this time to spend the whole day.”

[farmboyhawk]

"You think, you'll manage that? Stare at my glorious half naked, water dripping body all day and behave?"

Taking the risk of a jab in the ribs, Clint took his place in front of Natasha again and reached for her hands to wrap them around his waist.

"You'll love the market. Lots of stuff to see."

He smiled back at her warmly, letting her know, it was alright, they had no pressure at all and should make use of that.

Also, cuddling with her on the sofa for a few hours sounded just about perfect right now.

The ride didn't take that long anymore this time - he was getting familiar with the road again - but they were stopped by a not completely unexpected visitor at their front door. Again.

"You..."

Clint sighed and pointed a sharp finger at the kitten lying right at his front porch as if it had all right to.

"I know how to say the word no in thirty different languages. Don't even try."

[study_in_scarlet]

Resting her chin on his shoulder when he took his seat in front of her, Natasha brought her lips very near to his ear. “Now who said anything about behaving?” she said, giving him a quick nip before leaning back again so they could be on their way.

She was actually quite looking forward to the market. Shopping malls and big box stores had never been her thing, but open air markets always had a sort of feeling about them that she enjoyed. It was easy to get taken in by the cheap knock offs, but there were usually some genuinely well made items to be found, not to mention all the fresh, locally grown produce and home baked goods. “I’m looking forward to it,” she said, knowing he would want to hear it.

It was hard to just sit back and relax. Normally when they had any time away from home it was never more than a few days between the end of the mission and when they had to return, so the concept of just relaxing instead of trying to fill every day with as much as they could was taking a while to set in. Clint had always been more laid back than her, though, and she had no doubt he would make sure she settled down soon enough.

When they reached the house again Natasha couldn’t help but laugh when they found the kitten she had pet earlier waiting for them. “The way you act, one would think you’re allergic to them,” she said, giving Clint a good natured roll of her eyes as she stooped to pick the kitten up. It purred and snuggled against her chest and she could feel her heart softening.

“You can’t come in,” she said to it in Italian as she carried it across the yard to a soft tuft of grass beneath a shady tree. Crouching down again, she set it on the grass and scratched between its ears. “Go find your brothers and sisters, and maybe later I can sneak you out some milk.” This last part was whispered quietly so Clint wouldn’t hear before she got back to her feet and walked back over to the door.

[farmboyhawk]

Clint knew he had lost the battle the second Natasha picked up that little furball - again - and smiled in a way she probably wasn't even aware of. They definitely wouldn't get rid of that troublemaker anymore now. Oh well... As long as it stayed outside...

He faked a heavy, suffering sigh as he made his way into his house, mostly to hide his own grin. And here he was already thinking about putting some food out the next morning, just because things that made Natasha happy made him happy. Teenager in love indeed, Barton.

He busied himself in the kitchen until Natasha followed, coming up with new big glasses of water with lemon and ice cubes for refreshment. Sitting them down on the sofa table, he frowned at the suitcases still being mostly in the way.

"You want to sit a little while I take care of that stuff?" Knowing how important it was for her to not feel to not feel babied, he quickly added, grinning: "Unless you have all kind of dirty surprises in your suitcase that I'm not supposed to see. Wouldn't want to ruin the surprise."

[study_in_scarlet]

Closing the door behind her, she found Clint in the living room and gratefully took the glass he had set out for her and took a long drink of the cool, refreshing water. She wanted nothing more than to sink down onto the rather comfortable looking sofa and not move for an hour, but the reminder of the unpacking they still had yet to do kept her on her feet. She hated living out of a suitcase, and here it would just be a reminder that they would have to go back to reality eventually.

“Well, there are definitely some things in there that I packed especially for you,” she replied. Crossing the distance between them and placing a hand on his chest, she stole a quick kiss. “Let’s just get it over with. It won’t take long, and then we can have the rest of the day to relax.”

She had moved her bag as far as the bedroom earlier, and had started to remove things from it, but her dresses still hung in the bathroom, and it was more a mess around her suitcase instead of it being contained within.

[farmboyhawk]

"Can't wait to see these things..."

Well, it had been worth a try. Only his oversensitive protective instincts going crazy again, Clint shouldn't let her feel that. Fortunately, whenever Natasha kissed him, most burdening thoughts went right out of the window anyway. He took a moment to straighten her messed up hair and let her go to deal with her stuff then.

The bedroom cabinet wasn't all that large and most of his stuff didn't need clothes hangers anyway, so he could just store it in the living room dresser.

To make the dull work more fun, he plugged in the slightly outdated stereo lodged on said furniture. He just started the last CD he hadn't bothered taking out when he had last left, and rolled his eyes. Gianna Nannini, Al Bano Carrisi, Eros Ramazotti, for God's sake... Yeah, this had been a melancholic years alright. Or maybe the farmboy in him just never quite escaped that secret, deeply hidden streak for sappy country music, no matter the language.

In fact he still liked it a big deal and found himself first whistling and soon singing along with the music while he sorted his clothes in the three large drawers as tidily as his natural laziness allowed. It probably sounded ridiculous - his own voice always sounded to him a lot like what the furballs outside sometimes did at midnight - but he couldn't bring himself to care.

It was a good day.

[study_in_scarlet]

“All in good time,” Natasha replied before disappearing into the bedroom. She knew Clint was worried about her, that he could tell she was feeling off. She would have to try harder to hide it, and get some rest to kick whatever it was. Stress of the past few days, jetlag, change in diet; whatever it was it would pass, and she refused to let it get the better of her. A little relaxation tonight and she should be much better tomorrow.

Unpacking her things, it was tempting to put on one of the sexy little numbers she had packed just to tease Clint, but their teasing rarely stayed at just that, and she didn’t really have the energy for another round right now, so she placed them all carefully in the top drawer of the dresser, along with her more sensible underwear.

Music made the unpacking go quicker, but Natasha stopped for a moment when she realised it wasn’t just the CD playing that she was hearing. Leaving her task for the moment, she slipped out to the washroom to grab the dresses she had hung there before pausing in the doorway to the livingroom where Clint was unpacking.

Whatever he thought of his own voice, Natasha was always impressed on the rare occasions she had heard him sing. There was something about his voice that made her heart beat faster and her stomach flip like some teenage girl at a concert for some boyband or another.

For a long moment she just watched and listened, overly pleased with the knowledge that he was feeling carefree and content enough to let himself go.

[farmboyhawk]

Clint had heard Natasha pass by to the bathroom but thought, she was already busy back in the bedroom when he suddenly spotted her from the corner of his eyes, just about to close the now empty suitcase and throw it in the next corner. Eros Ramazotti and him had just come to the mutual agreement that Clint could do a pretty passable harmony part for his greatest hit, complete with a sexy swinging of his hips and a candle bearer substituting for a mic. For a moment he nearly choked on his own words... But Natasha at least didn't look she had come to throw something blunt at his head to make him shut up.

And really, she had caught him in more embarrassing situations.

The candle holder was placed back as discreetly as possible, with a rueful grin. But because they had just reached the bridge which happened to be his favorite part of the song, he just kept on going, pressing his hand to his chest like a bad extra in a cheap Shakespeare piece to make her laugh.

[study_in_scarlet]

Natasha had definitely been enjoying the show, but when Clint caught sight of her the expression on his face was priceless an it took everything she had to hold back a laugh. Somehow she managed just a smirk, one eyebrow raising as if questioning his next move. She expected him to turn off the music and stutter out some sort of excuse, so when he actually played up his part instead, acting like the goofball only she knew he could be, she couldn’t hold back the laughter anymore.

She loved that he was willing to make a fool of himself for her, that he didn’t always have to be the tough guy, the macho man, like so many other men she knew. So many men were afraid of looking silly and got easily embarrassed, but Clint just rolled with it. She definitely counted it as one of his attractive qualities.

[farmboyhawk]

When Natasha laughed, it was hard not to join, so the last chorus wasn't all that professional anymore - not that it had been to begin with - but Clint held on to his part until the bitter end, even going down on one knee for his one-woman-audience in the end.

He might not really mind making a fool of himself for her (as far as some people were concerned, that could be his second name anyway, not that he minded), but his cheeks were decidedly too red for a little workout of his vocal cords when he finally got up again. Apparently, grog in the middle of the day wasn't good for his filters.

But Natasha was giggling and one day he would tell her how adorable that was, even if it would bring him a bruise or two. Still grinning, he passed her by to heave his luggage on the top of the cabinet in the bedroom and do the same for her. Sometimes a few inches of height more made life so much easier.

"Anything I can still help you with? Except for a encore?"

[study_in_scarlet]

The whole performance became silly, with Clint admirably trying to finish despite trying not to laugh the whole time, and at the end Natasha draped the dresses over one arm and gave him a round of applause. He looked so embarrassed that she couldn’t help but feel a little bit herself for him, but it was still a memory she was happy to have.

Following him back into the bedroom, she hung the dresses up in the closet and stowed the last few items she’d had laid out on the bed away in in the dresser while he took care of the empty luggage.

“I think that will last me for a while,” she replied, looking around the room to make sure she hadn’t forgotten anything before giving a satisfied nod. “You look like you could use some water, though.”

[farmboyhawk]

"True. I'm getting old. Should have seen me in my youth, giving whole concerts for the sofa and the floor lamp while working on my weapons. Two hours without breaking a sweat."

Clint let out a snort when he crashed on the sofa and emptied half of his glass in one go. With his legs comfortably stretched there was still enough room for Natasha to occupy the slightly shorter square part. The last thing he wanted to do was smothering her, though he certainly wouldn't mind if she wanted to cuddle by his side instead. The music was still on, but he had tuned it down to a soft background noise, very helpful to relax when he closed his eyes for a few seconds.

Something poked into his back under a pile of pillows, deeply enough stuck between cushions and arm rest to even have slipped Angelina's sharp sight. Mildly confused, Clint dug out a book that he couldn't place. Until he remembered that he had been through a short horror phase once. Usually he got enough horror in his everyday life to avoid that kind of stuff... Well, mostly. Natasha would surely confirm that an embarrassing part of his movie collection consisted of that stuff. And now he remembered that this guy, King, had kept him company pretty well during a few boring sleepless nights. And yes, it was undeniably his, the dog ear in the middle of the book proved it.

"Yep, I've been the perfect bachelor", he commented, dropping the pretty weathered looking book on the table.

[study_in_scarlet]

“Such talent wasted on inanimate objects,” Natasha replied, shaking her head in mock sadness. “And now you just spend your energy in less solitary ways.”

Maybe he couldn’t sing for two hours straight anymore, but he certainly had enough stamina to keep her satisfied every night. And day. Sometimes both, and multiple times.

Back in the living room Natasha reclaimed her own water and took a long drink, eyeing Clint curiously as he shifted around before coming up with a well worn book from between the sofa cushions.

“So I see,” she said, rounding the coffee table and setting her glass back down before taking a seat on the sofa. “And now here I am, cramping your style.” Pulling his feet onto her lap, she snatched up the book and flipped idly through it to the page he had left marked, her eyes skimming over the words.